The Ramblings of a Wannabe Healthy Girl

Here I am, my 100th post....I was somewhat of a success story, at least for a little while. I started this blog at around 185 lbs, on June 6 of 2010 I was 183.2 lbs, I managed in 6 months or so to lose almost 20 lbs weighing in at the lowest weight I had seen since high school on Halloween of 2010 164.4 and here I am almost two years later and weighing in today at 183.2 lbs. What an ridiculously futile cycle this seems like. I don't want to ride this weight loss roller coaster again. I want to go down and stay down. I know I'm not the only one who feels this way and I also no their is no magic pill. There's just me and my willpower and my drive to do this. I know its in me somewhere, I'm just having trouble finding it.

I don't know why I do this over and over. I lose weight and then go back to my bad habits and gain it all back if not more. I need motivation seriously. I know my health should be motivation enough but some how it is not. I need to hold my self accountable for how I treat my body and I haven't been doing so. This needs to stop now and for good. Tomorrow is a new day and I'm going to start taking care of me. I'm not getting any younger. I need to do this now.

It's Friday, it's Friday, wahhoooo :) I love weekends, especially 4 day ones with a little trip included. I'm headed out Sunday with my kids for a short stay with a friend whose rented a house at the beach. The weather isn't looking so great but it will be nice to get away for a couple days anyway. Even better than getting away is the fact that I weighed in this morning and all that water weight I was holding due to TOM is gone and I saw a wonderful number on the scale - 173.8 -  I haven't seen anything that low since September. I know I'll probably overdo things a bit this weekend. BUT I also know that I'll get right back in the saddle when I'm back home. I can do this.

I woke up this morning after a fun, very eventful but restrained weekend food-wise to a 2.6lbs gain on the scale. Why the gain if I didn't overindulge? The impending arrival of a monthly visitor. Ugh. Such frustration to go from 175 on Saturday morning to 177.6 this morning while staying on point calorie and nutrition wise as well as after spending most of the day yesterday on my feet walking around. It's wonderful being a girl :P

Hey all!! Busy weekend ahead for me, minor league baseball game tonight with my daughters school, baseball end of season jamboree tomorrow and amusement park trip on Sunday. There will be some tough food decisions to make all weekend but I'm confident I can handle them. I weighed in this morning at 175 even and my goal is to make it through the weekend and not get any higher than 175. something. With all the activities I have going on it will be tough but I'm committed to making it happen. I am quickly coming up on my 100th post and I'm thinking about doing a giveaway to celebrate. I have some ideas in mind of what I'd like to give away...stay tuned :)

Down another 1.2 today for a weigh in of 175 even :) YAY!! lol - I can't remember how long its been since I saw 175 on my scale.
I'm excited because the two bathing suits I ordered from Old Navy are supposed to arrive tomorrow. Hopefully I like how they look. I kind of went out on a limb with this one.
 

    
I'm hoping I'll be pleasantly surprised by how it looks.