The Ramblings of a Wannabe Healthy Girl

I finally feel some sense of control again. I've set a goal for my self of 150lbs by April 15th. Thats 15lbs in just about 7 weeks. With WW I think that it's entirely possible and I'm looking forward to seeing the weight start to drop off again. I've been sitting stagnant in the 160's for way too long. I have 1.2 lbs to go till I'm no longer obese. Hopefully I'll be doing the happy dance for that next week.

Oh and in my last post I mentioned how I'm starting a new job tomorrow and my goal was to be no more than 165lbs when I started. WoooooHoooo!!! Goal met!!! I'll be starting work wearing a new pair of black size 12p that make my butt look amazing, if I do say so myself :)

I made it through day one of being back into the swing of things. I didn't let the cold outside and the mountains of snow be an excuse for not exercising. I played Just Dance 2 on the wii for about an hour and it felt good to move though I hadn't realized how out of shape I had already got. I drank plenty of water and ate much healthier and in much smaller portions than I have been allowing myself.
I'm starting a new job on the 28th after being out of work for 13 months. I'm determined to start that job weighing no more than 165 lbs. I have decided that I'll be weighing in every day until then. I know, I know, weighing every day is a big no-no but in this case I don't care. I weighed in this morning and already am down to 169.2 with just one day of being healthy. I think I should be able to get down to 165 as long as I continue. I'm looking forward to going back to work because I tend to be a boredom eater and being at the house all day in the winter is not good for that. In the summer it was great, 5 mile walks almost everyday, playing outside with my kids etc. but being inside the house and not exercising is killing me.
I started today on the right track. I had a big scramble made with egg beaters, green peppers, tomato, chicken and half a slice of havarti cheese with an english muffin. It was a huge amount of food and it clocked in at around 400 calories. I drank coffee with splenda and sugarfree french vanilla coffee-mate with it. Lunch is going to be a lean cuisine steam entree, not sure what kind yet but they're pretty yummy.

I've been MIA for about 6 weeks and I'm pretty sure you all know what that means....I've been hiding. Burying my head in the sand about the crappy way I've been taking care of myself. Too many carbs, not enough exercise. No real drive to continue on the good path which has meant that I have veered so far away from all the healthy habits I had developed over the last year and resulting in a weight gain putting me at............................171 lbs. I'm ashamed that I let myself stray so far. I really thought I had learned something over the last year but apparently I didn't learn as much as I had thought. So here I am starting over. I started my weight loss journey half heartedly in March of last year and while I can't complain about the 22 lbs I have managed to keep off over the past 11 months, I'm nowhere near where I should be at this point.

As I said I've been hiding but I'm not going to hide anymore. I need to get back on this weight loss and stop using the 3 feet of snow outside as an excuse not to exercise. I need to stop eating the remainder of whats on my kids plates just because it's there. I need to stop the late night snacking. I need to move my body and remind myself how good it feels to see the numbers going down on the scale rather than up. I need to stop putting off eating healthy till the next day and the next and the next.

I'm ready.

I need to do this.

I'm starting now.

So I've been a bit lax everywhere, not just with my exercise. I've neglected alot of things over the holidays and I'm ready to get back in action. The first thing I have to do that I should have done is thank Lyndsay, my awesome swap partner for all the great gifts. I loved everything especially the mug, the mittens/scarf (orange, my fav :D) and of course I can't leave out the Panera gift card. She also made me an ornament that earned a special place at the top of the tree. Lyndsay did a great job shopping for me, the swap was alot of fun and I wish I just didn't get so overwhelmed by the holidays so I could have been better about posting about it. Thanks again Lyndsay!!

So I went MIA over the past couple weeks. I just had too much going on and not enough time or energy to do it. I'm exhausted and I just can't get myself together eating or exercising. As of this morning I'm sitting at 169.4 which is up 2.6 lbs up from my last official weigh-in on December 6th. Not even nearly close to where I wanted to be for the new year. I saw numbers as high as 172.something last week which frustrated me so unbelievably but yet I still can't motivate to really get my ass in gear and do something about it. I have been trying to make little positive changes, like drinking water instead of anything else besides my morning coffee, but the cookies that I can't bring myself to throw out keep calling to me. I know I need to throw them out but I just haven't been able to do it which means that I've been walking by and grabbing one 2 or 3 times a day. Not good.
The other thing I have going on is starting January 1st, I'm not only going to be attempting to lose my body fat I'm also going to be attempting to get my household to be more financially fit, following Dave Ramsey's Total Money Makeover. I've done some reading and his approach makes alot of sense to me. Has anyone done this and have any feedback or suggestions?

My gift swap partner Lyndsay's package finally arrived to her today, YAYYYYY!!!!

Since we're technically 3 days into the gift swap I got to open not one, not two but three gifts today - wooooohoo :)

While I took pictures of gifts 2 and 3, gift #1 was partially liberated by my hubby before I was able to take a picture.

Day 1's gift was two bags of peanut m&m's(one dark chocolate and one regular) The regular were on the counter for just a moment before being grabbed by the hubby who insisted on "trying them". The dark chocolate ones were promptly poured into this cute little guy

I love him, he's such a happy little snowman :)

It didn't take me long to rip into my next gift which was the awesome set of cookie cutters pictured below. These are perfect since I bake with my daughter all the time, and actually only have like 3 cookie cutters for the holidays and they're huge. I love that these are smaller and make much more reasonably portioned cookies.

I'm hoping that Lyndsay likes her gifts as much as I like mine and I can;t wait for day 4 tomorrow.

I had my weekly weigh in yesterday before heading to NYC for the day with a friend and am ashamed to say my weight was 166.6 which is only a .2 loss from last week. I'm really not on track to hit my December 31st goal of 159.9 and since I woke up this morning with a bad head cold/possible sinus infection it looks like it's probably not going to happen. I'm not giving up yet though. I have 17 more days and there's always a chance that a miracle could happen.

Yesterday I headed to NYC with one of my friends for the day. The plan was there was no plan :) We were going to see how the day went and enjoy whatever came to us. We hopped on the Metro Morth train from New Haven to Grand Central around 10, arriving just about 12 and promptly realized we were both starving. Now mind you I haven't been into Manhattan in years and I knew there was going to be no good choices made on the eating front yesterday. We ate lunch at the Heartland Brewery, shared a quesadilla appetizer, had two mixed drinks and a chopped salad for lunch. Then headed out for some shopping, followed by more drinks, more shopping, an appetizer, drinks, and then dinner. We did get a chance to have a drink at the Igloo Bar at Rockerfeller Center where we got to watch people ice skatig and actually saw a marriage proposal....awwwww. Here's a few pictures from the day :)



I would be posting my gift swap pictures today except it appears that the USPS is holding my gift swap partners package hostage and I've decided that until I know Lyndsay receives hers their will be no opening on this side either. I shipped it Thursday and I feel awful that it hasn't gotten their yet. I've got my fingers crossed it will finally arrive to her tomorrow.

Thats it for now, I'm hoping the Nyquil I just took will guarantee me some good sleep tonight. Until tomorrow, sweet dreams.