The Ramblings of a Wannabe Healthy Girl

I'm working a semi - low carb plan - staying under 100 carbs a day and trying to get all my steps in and as of this morning I was at 190 even. Thats with TOM looming so I'll take it. I also joined a dietbet that started yesterday and runs until May 18. I have to hit under 185.3 to win. I hate to lose/waste money so its a pretty good investment in me :)

Still doing good on the walking and eating well side of things. I had a tooth pulled yesterday so I was lazy and didn't get all my steps in but still hit just under 10k which considering I lounged on the couch and babied myself was a win for me. It's going to be a cold weekend here - hopefully our last one before spring arrives - so I'll be doing laps inside my kitchen to try to hit 20k steps Saturday and Sunday. I've been having some pain and swelling in the top of my foot - in the area of the tendon that runs up from the big toe so I used yesterday as a rest day to try and calm the irritation down a bit.
Hope everyone has a great weekend. I'll be checking in Monday with a weigh in.

So here we go again same old story - I'm fat and trying to lose weight. Seems like some things never change. My best friend asked me to be a bridesmaid in her wedding before Christmas and like an ass I waited and waited to work on losing weight so here we are 129 days until the wedding and I'm just as fat as when she asked me. I am seriously trying to work on it though. Saturday I strapped the fitbit back on and started walking. I've got my goal set at 12,000 steps a day minimum but I've been doing over 16,000 with a high of 20,229 on Sunday. I've been doing lots of laps around the kitchen. I'm planning on eating my last mini bag of cadbury eggs tonight and then I'm done with the candy. I already did away with the stash at my work that I'd been hitting on the regular. My bridesmaid dress should be arriving soon and I'm not looking forward to trying it on :(

Anyway so my weight as of Sunday was 193.5 - hoping that by next Sunday I see a drop of at least a couple lbs. It would certainly help my motivation.

Well here it is another year gone by and I'm heavier than the last. It's ridiculous that I haven't committed myself to taking care of me yet and instead choose to be lazy and take the easy way out. I know it takes work, I know it takes a commitment and yet I can't seem to be bothered. I know I need to do something so I'm starting over - yet again. My weight this morning is 189.5, I think that may be the highest I've seen while writing this blog. I will weigh in on Mondays because I'm hoping that will help to keep me on track for the weekends. I'm attempting to follow a South Beach type diet at least for now but I also have a weight watchers online membership that's paid up till mid March so after doing Phase 1 of South Beach from now until the 25th I may change it up to Weight Watchers. I will be going to the gym 4 times a week - I'm planning on M,T,Th and then either Saturday or Sunday. I know what works, I just have to commit to it.

I have nothing really to say....I've gained I think since my last stop by here in January. Not as much as I thought I did but my weigh in in January was 183.2 and this morning was 184.5. I guess we can say I've maintained my out of shapeness for 5 and 1/2 months. I have a beach weekend scheduled for July 12-15 and I'd really like to be down 10lbs by then so I can at least fit in my summer clothes.
I've been wearing a fitbit for a couple months and tracking on myfitnesspal more often than not but I think my metabolism is at a crawl now. I've got to do something and stop making excuses.

I went to weigh in thi morning and my scale that I thought had needed just a battery replacement was erroring out. I didn't get to weigh in this morning but did make it to my moms this afternoon to use her scale, which is actually where I weighed in last week anyhow and the result was 183.2 - total loss of 3.8 from last Tuesday!!! Yahoo :)

I started my new job yesterday and my eating has been on point. I started my day at 6am with a portioned bowl of the new Honey Nut Cheerios Medley Crunch with a sliced banana and 1% milk. On the way to work I got a large Dunkin Donuts coffee with cream (yes, I said cream - I refuse to cut out everything) and Splenda. At about 10am I had a 90 calorie Yoplait yogurt, at noon - an apple and at 1:30ish - a nature valley granola bar package (both bars). At my PTO meeting tonight I had a slice of the chocolate chip friendship bread I brought and then just a little while ago I made myself nachos for dinner with the leftover salsa chicken I had made in the crock pot on Friday. Now it's water for the rest of the night.

I finally feel like I've got some control again. Not being in an office surrounded by other people who are bringing food in and getting take out for lunch will be great for me since as I've said before I have little to no self control.

I feel very dejected by my weekend as a whole or as I've been calling it my weak-end. I didn't try hard, I failed myself with my eating and exercising and the scale shows it. I've decided to make my weekly weigh-in on Tuesdays for now. Give myself a day to relieve some of the damage done.

I start my new job tomorrow and I felt very defeated as I tried on clothes to try to pick something to wear. Most of my stuff is too tight. Not a good feeling at all. I'm not buying new clothes so I guess I'm going to have to make this work.